I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

and the fake qualifier

It Will Get Lighter

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

December 2025

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

and the fake qualifier

It Will Get Lighter

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.


it is hopeful

you know who you are. no more time, not like

1

. way too specific.


Can I see

2 (actually index). two is company

...

Lift Analysis

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

much more tactility