feel you

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

kind of mythopoesis

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

I am below everything.

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

was it worth it

2 (actually index). two is company

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

1

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

abrar?

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

"Put a blanket."

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book