ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

you cannot feed someone truth

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

its performative

so the method has to be autonomous

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it is hopeful

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

thank you

and the fake qualifier

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

god being the centre magnet

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Lift Analysis

December 2025

i want to do that too

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it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

Slug