it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

currently

13, H, grate

in a post. I want to be remembered

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

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It Will Get Lighter

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Rain, starting

division of reality is straying away from it

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

have you read

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

magnetisation/form

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

but really the thing should be autonomous

propensity within someone

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them