yeah

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Worse Lift

Better Lift

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Style

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

It Will Get Lighter

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

I am below everything.

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which magnetises chains of pins

i want to do that too

god being the centre magnet

i dont understand magnetisation

i understand

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

your feed looks like my tumblr

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

i love it here

thank you

yeah

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

feel you

He was cast as the guy who gets picked up and thrown out of the poker game to set the scene before the main characters arrive. Out of Real London and into real London, a discarded prop, at this party, chatting to me.

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."