Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

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After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Lift Analysis

i see a website

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

I am below everything.

like magnets

what do you think my name is

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

is this you as well

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

sorry i am texting like a slav

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

no longer writing in the third person

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

what do you mean

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

hiding from the rain

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities