like magnets

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

It Will Get Lighter

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

Picture

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

FOUNDING DOCUMENT


Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Better Lift

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

I am below everything.

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

13, H, grate

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Rain, starting

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

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Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

I'm getting bored and he can tell, so he shifts the topic towards me. He tells me he'd spotted me chatting to a girl earlier, a black girl, and asks what I thought of her, if I liked her. I mimed affirmatively.

i really havent

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Slug

i want to do that too

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

...

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

is this you as well

no like which do people call me

thank you