A roll of 50s is one of the items he dumps onto my table during the search. Of course it is. He asks if I'm a delivery boy or a setter or this or that diamond related job. I keep saying no, I'm enjoying hearing all of these new words. Eventually I tell him that I work in film, which is kind of true. He asks where I'm filming. I'm not filming. He tells me that I can't be that good at it then. He then tells me that he made a film once, in the 80s. It was called Pimlico Rats.
Today I felt like starting
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
currently
yes
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
bro i read nothing in my life
was it worth it
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
its good
and the fake qualifier
no longer writing in the third person
i really havent
i have read not even 1 book
i want to do that too