It's loud and he's gone deaf in one ear, so I don't think he's really hearing anything I'm trying to say. We're both pretty drunk too. It's making for a kind of surreal interactive Business Insider YouTube video of a conversation. He talks, waits for my response, sees my mouth moving but doesn't hear my words, then he imagines something in their place, and replies to that. At least I don't really have to do anything but drink and mime and listen to a lot of bullshit fake gangster talk, being an actor, boxing, the old days, blah blah blah.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Today I felt like starting

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

It Will Get Lighter

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

it is hopeful

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Better Lift

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

yes

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

Can I see

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59