so at the end

it is hopeful

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

what do you mean

no longer writing in the third person

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

you cannot feed someone truth

but really the thing should be autonomous

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

as in

i was tempted to lie about my name

magnetisation/form

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

i really havent

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful