and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging
its performative

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Rain, starting

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

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something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Better Lift

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

Can I see


One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

you know who you are. no more time, not like

1

. way too specific.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

was it worth it

yeah

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

Slug

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

bro i read nothing in my life

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

The Hatton geezer (fuck off) reminds me of this old failed actor who I'd met at a party a few years ago, another man out of time and out of place. This actor had scored a minor role in Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels and never really let go of it, had gone on to build his whole identity around it. I can't really blame him.


stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time


It Will Get Lighter