i really havent

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext



you cannot feed someone truth

Can I see

division of reality is straying away from it

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

you have a beautiful account btw

I am below everything.

your feed looks like my tumblr

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

not their contents

god being the centre magnet

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

but i respect your search

autonomy of learning

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

Lift Analysis


with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

ahnaf abrar