Today I felt like starting
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
hiding from the rain
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
it is hopeful
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
currently
barren land
there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.
autonomy of learning
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
was it worth it
yeah
so at the end
as in
no longer writing in the third person
we need to be deconstructing our identities
i really havent
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation