but i respect your search


i was tempted to lie about my name

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate


Can I see

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

It Will Get Lighter

i dont understand magnetisation

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

its performative

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.


Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

like first name


and the fake qualifier

whats your name?

so an active mazelike process

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

not their contents

currently