i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.



in a post. I want to be remembered

13, H, grate

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.



Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

Better Lift

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Today I felt like starting


I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

hiding from the rain

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

is everyoneback on tumblr now

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

its good

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

its good short few pages

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books