One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08


I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

no longer writing in the third person

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

in a post. I want to be remembered

IWGD

Worse Lift

your feed looks like my tumblr

autonomy of learning

it is hopeful

abrar?

ahnaf abrar

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

ion

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

we need to be deconstructing our identities

idk

you cannot feed someone truth

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse

no i haven't really read anything

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

much more tactility

so an active mazelike process

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

its good