Rain, starting

hiding from the rain

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

in a post. I want to be remembered

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

13, H, grate

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

plato


this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet


Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

like magnets

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

have you read

what do you mean

i was tempted to lie about my name

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

yeah

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

i really havent

no i haven't really read anything

magnetisation/form

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

we need to be deconstructing our identities

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

its performative



you cannot feed someone truth

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them