i really havent

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

bro i read nothing in my life

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

isaac newton

whats your name?

ahnaf abrar

like first name

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

and the fake qualifier

i was tempted to lie about my name

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

as in

i really havent

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

really i want the internet

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

⚠️ Live Document Forever ⚠️

abrar?

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

I'm sat out the front of a cafe in Hatton Garden. I've just eaten a brie and bacon panini, and I'm rolling a cigarette. Feeling very London. An old man comes up to me and asks for a roll-up. I oblige.

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

I catch him on his way to the bar, telling him about this old racist failed actor that I'm avoiding. That I'm failing to confront. I get the sense he's avoiding people too. We get our drinks and find a corner. We chat for a bit. He's managing just fine.

The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."