was it worth it
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
in a post. I want to be remembered
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
kind of mythopoesis
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever
She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Lift Analysis
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me
we want to live the knowledge too live the content
all that is to say
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
its performative
as in
so the method has to be autonomous