to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

like first name

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

send link

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

its good short few pages

yeah

Rain, starting

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

I am below everything.

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

i want to do that too

i was tempted to lie about my name

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

its good

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

wait what is that