Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Thank you, Jack

Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

which magnetises chains of pins

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

magnetises a pin

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

13, H, grate

But seriously, thank you, Jack