It Will Get Lighter

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

in a post. I want to be remembered

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

Better Lift

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

Today I felt like starting

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

thank you

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

December 2025

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

sorry i am texting like a slav

...

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

yeah