As we're stood there I notice a middle-aged woman staring at us across the room. I'm trying to catch her gaze, but its kind of vacant. I guess she sees me looking and considers it to be an invitation. She floats over to us in this strange dazed way, and on the approach I realise she's staring at (through?) my Korean colleague / fresh meat. She's saying wow, wow, wow. She seems genuinely so delighted, so shocked, so elated.

13, H, grate

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

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I am below everything.


It Will Get Lighter

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.


"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

"Put a blanket."

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

Rain, starting

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

It Will Get Lighter

was it worth it

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

yeah

we need to be deconstructing our identities

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

lol

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos