Today I felt like starting

2 (actually index). two is company

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

Rain, starting

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

in a post. I want to be remembered

It Will Get Lighter

Picture

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

god being the centre magnet

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

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Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

or never left

that looks like my instagram account


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Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

lol yea

idk

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

Style

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

feel you

It Will Get Lighter