i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

we need to be deconstructing our identities

Thank you, Jack

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

Can I see

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

its performative

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

Style

really i want the internet


I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

it is hopeful

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

It Will Get Lighter

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

I catch him on his way to the bar, telling him about this old racist failed actor that I'm avoiding. That I'm failing to confront. I get the sense he's avoiding people too. We get our drinks and find a corner. We chat for a bit. He's managing just fine.

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

god being the centre magnet

idk

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

your feed looks like my tumblr

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

or never left

13, H, grate

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

whats your name?

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful