propensity within someone
magnetisation/form
and the fake qualifier
much more tactility
was it worth it
isaac newton
sorry i am texting like a slav
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
barren land
no i haven't really read anything
abrar?
Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.
ion
it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
lol yea
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Thank you, Jack
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext
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with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
as in
i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then