My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

propensity within someone

magnetisation/form

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

as in

but i respect your search

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

Thank you, Jack

you have a beautiful account btw

really i want the internet

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

Better Lift

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

i see a website

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

you cannot feed someone truth

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

idk

which magnetises chains of pins