yes

no longer writing in the third person

I am below everything.

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

Lift Analysis

magnetises a pin

isaac newton

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

ion

as in

which magnetises chains of pins

autonomy of learning

no i haven't really read anything

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

division of reality is straying away from it

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

you cannot feed someone truth

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

what do you mean