the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

god being the centre magnet

so at the end

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

so the method has to be autonomous

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

magnetisation/form

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

propensity within someone

its good

autonomy of learning

i dont understand magnetisation

not their contents

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

sorry i am texting like a slav

plato

have you read

I Write Goodbye Letter