And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator consistently fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.
December 2025
you know who you are. no more time, not like
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. way too specific.hello reader,
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class
it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
is this you as well
its good short few pages
ion
its good
i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason
its good
like magnets
i love it here
stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time
ahnaf abrar
god "possessing" artists "possessing" people
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
so the method has to be autonomous
my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given
and the fake qualifier
there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.
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theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
was it worth it
and the fake qualifier
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.