December 2025

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Worse Lift

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

so an active mazelike process

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

Better Lift

i want to do that too

i love it here

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

i was tempted to lie about my name

feel you

we can only engage in such a way

all that is to say

you cannot feed someone truth

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books