Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

...

was it worth it

lol

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

that looks like my instagram account

I Write Goodbye Letter

so at the end

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

bro i read nothing in my life

...

Today I felt like starting


Picture

propensity within someone

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

its good


it is hopeful



I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

Better Lift

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything


division of reality is straying away from it

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

not so on: yvf(wthw)

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41