currently

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

or never left

was it worth it

this will be about a slug

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

December 2025

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

barren land

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

god being the centre magnet

it is hopeful

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

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"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities 

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hiding from the rain

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

but i respect your search

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the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

autonomy of learning

which magnetises chains of pins