I'm getting bored and he can tell, so he shifts the topic towards me. He tells me he'd spotted me chatting to a girl earlier, a black girl, and asks what I thought of her, if I liked her. I mimed affirmatively.

not their contents

in a post. I want to be remembered

It Will Get Lighter

13, H, grate

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

magnetisation/form

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

as in

"Put a blanket."

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Rain, starting


"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

division of reality is straying away from it

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

its good

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

thank you

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

abrar?

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

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its performative

i have read not even 1 book