the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
we can only engage in such a way
"Put a blanket."
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
currently
all that is to say
so an active mazelike process
autonomy of learning
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
Today I felt like starting
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59