Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
abrar?
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
so an active mazelike process
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
Better Lift
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
not their contents
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever
is this you as well
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
and the fake qualifier
Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
was it worth it
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
but i respect your search
really i want the internet
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.