the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
plato
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
hiding from the rain
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
no longer writing in the third person
Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.
Lift Analysis
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
we need to be deconstructing our identities
We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.
much more tactility
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
we want to live the knowledge too live the content
it is hopeful
not their contents
magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you
its performative
so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities
i really havent