I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we
watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the
bank.
Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression
no like which do people call me
i did until you asked which kind of gave it away
She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen.
I go inside.
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry
class
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
but really the thing should be autonomous
Lift and
confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed
feelings or fear of judgment. Unexpected confession – The girl saying
“I think I might love you” could symbolize longing
for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy. Forest and snow – The transition to a
snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while
dusk points to transition or uncertainty. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of
some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.
We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty
cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.
i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i
didn’t watch it then
They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks
for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
