i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.
the site i am dreaming
that looks like my instagram account
amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
is everyoneback on tumblr now
send link
i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things
was it worth it
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine
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Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
so an active mazelike process
there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
idk
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
Can I see
god being the centre magnet