we need to be deconstructing our identities

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.


I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

division of reality is straying away from it

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

brb i will read and reply sincerely

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Rain, starting

yes

was it worth it

and the fake qualifier

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

and the fake qualifier

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

it is hopeful

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mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

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i have read not even 1 book