with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
hiding from the rain
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
no longer writing in the third person
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting
magnetisation/form
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you
have you read
"Put a blanket."