i really havent
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
it is hopeful
no longer writing in the third person
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.as in
not their contents
its performative
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
so the method has to be autonomous
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
its good
i was tempted to lie about my name