Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
autonomy of learning
division of reality is straying away from it
i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it
all that is to say
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
it is hopeful
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.
currently
so at the end
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
ahnaf abrar
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
which magnetises chains of pins
and the fake qualifier
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos