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so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

i love it here

i was tempted to lie about my name

you know who you are. no more time, not like

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god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

much more tactility

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

isaac

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

sorry i am texting like a slav

As I'm trying to tell my Korean colleague / fresh meat that this is abnormal, that most people in England aren't like this, the host of the party emerges from the bathroom to a roar of laughter and applause. He's a fat middle aged Frenchman and he's changed into traditional Indian dress and a turban. He looks fucking ridiculous. I try to back away, to avoid the inevitable photo of me in this moment that will one day appear to ruin my life, but everyone is crowding around, trapping me in the middle of it.

its good short few pages

He was cast as the guy who gets picked up and thrown out of the poker game to set the scene before the main characters arrive. Out of Real London and into real London, a discarded prop, at this party, chatting to me.

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

Thank you, Jack, for telling me I'm just as bad as the characters (actually they're people, if that means anything to you) that I'm writing about.

The Hatton geezer (fuck off) reminds me of this old failed actor who I'd met at a party a few years ago, another man out of time and out of place. This actor had scored a minor role in Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels and never really let go of it, had gone on to build his whole identity around it. I can't really blame him.

plato

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

i want to do that too

lol

isaac newton

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

magnetisation/form

idk

which magnetises chains of pins