okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
propensity within someone
a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was
HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that
the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece
in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality
should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic
hypertext
As we're stood there I notice a middle-aged woman staring at us across the
room. I'm trying to catch her gaze, but its kind of vacant. I guess she sees
me looking and considers it to be an invitation. She floats over to us in this
strange dazed way, and on the approach I realise she's staring at (through?)
my Korean colleague / fresh meat. She's saying wow, wow, wow. She seems
genuinely so delighted, so shocked, so elated.
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
we want to live the knowledge too live the content
Rain, starting
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream
education now
Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life
Like the tide, it comes in
and it washes over the beach.
It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.
Pimlico Rats
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
It Will Get Lighter
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
I'm sat out the front of a cafe in Hatton Garden. I've just eaten a brie and
bacon panini, and I'm rolling a cigarette. Feeling very London. An old man
comes up to me and asks for a roll-up. I oblige.
so an active mazelike process
