Worse Lift

It Will Get Lighter

barren land

Slug

the site i am dreaming

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

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December 2025

wait what is that

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

ahnaf abrar

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.


so at the end

i was tempted to lie about my name

what do you think my name is

in a post. I want to be remembered

...

not so on: yvf(wthw)

abrar?


part of an old note. It will get lighter.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

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a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

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