the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
like first name
I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?
She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.
i understand
plato
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okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
as in
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
its performative
We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.
Better Lift
amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting
i dont understand magnetisation
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
its good short few pages
that looks like my instagram account
Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15
We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.
I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
have you read