it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen.
I go inside.
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
i am quite illiterate on producing technology
But seriously, thank you, Jack,
for telling me that I could
submit this to a high-level literary magazine or creative nonfiction outlet with some minor tweaks. I don't think I will do that.
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording
of his website, something that could be found within it
FOUNDING DOCUMENT
The Hatton geezer (fuck off) is emptying his pockets, searching for the silver
rizlas he apparently has. He refuses to take one of mine (also silver) because
the tobacco I'm giving him is already too much to ask. He tells me about the
guy who can do 50g of Golden Virginia for a good price, the guy who every
other man over 50 knows. I'm not interested.
i have read not even 1 book
It Will Get Lighter
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media,
both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
