brb i will read and reply sincerely

much more tactility

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

I am below everything.

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

Rain, starting

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

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with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

Worse Lift

Today I felt like starting

no longer writing in the third person

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

lol yea

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

Thank you, Jack

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

so at the end