ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

It Will Get Lighter

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

in a post. I want to be remembered

Worse Lift

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me. The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

2 (actually index). two is company

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

I am below everything.

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

and the fake qualifier

i really havent

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos